• Today I feel like both Keith Richards and Tara Reid, because whether I end up a rock star or simply a hot mess, I’m ready to party.  

Today starts a little unofficial vacation for me, including an awesome July 4th party with lots of great food, pool volleyball and just enough food and sun to keep me in a very very happy place.  Hopefully I will party enough in the next four days to make up for the severe lack of partying that has been my current life.  

I have been looking forward to this for so long, I don’t know what to do now that its actually here.

Kim left today.

Ethan was born on June 6th at 10PM.  He is the most wonderful thing in the entire world.  And, he is soon to be my Godson.  I have been spending as much time with him as possible before he and my best friend leave, breaking my heart twice.  

They make you think that after you graduate from college you only get so many major life changes, and yet, everything seems to change so easily.  One occurrence and nine months later a miracle like Ethan.  One decision, and you are soon moving in with a 27 year-old practical stranger named Edwin.  Friends change, people grow closer and grow apart.  And I am still learning so much about myself, I’m definitely changing.  

There’s nothing cooler than babies.  It’s the worlds best kept secret.  Sure sometimes they are fussy and cry for no reason, and it’s frustrating.  But with one look you know that they are simply the coolest thing that could ever happen.  And they grow so fast, and they need so much, and i know that life will never stop changing so fast and…  

I’m in for a lonely month in July.  I can feel it.  I already love him so much.

• Today I feel like: Lauren Graham, because I’ve been sassy all day in a fast talking i-find-myself-adorable-and-you-should-too sort of way.

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• Today I feel like this homeless woman.  Because it will soon be my life.

• Today I feel as quirky as Audrey Tatou, especially in the role of Amelie, which is a beyond wonderful film.

A couple of girls I went to college with just started a video website and they are actually quite funny, and I’ve seen a lot of online videos, and most are not funny, but these girls actually are.  SO in support of them, I am bloggin away.  Check it.

www.reneeandtrish.com

oh, and they’re hot too.

• That’s right.  Today I feel like non other than Kirstie Alley, and its for exactly the reason you are thinking, I am gaining weight and I can’t stop eating.  

• Today I feel like:  George Lucas, because all I want to do is make movies.  

I hate when things get randomly deleted, like this original post.  

In which I mention that like Angelina, I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of a baby.  And then I explain that my blog won’t load the photo, and you should use your imagination, and if you wanted, nudity was possible that way, whereas the picture i had, nudity not possible.  

And then I talked from the heart about Kim’s baby shower, which has me completely wiped.  And about her baby.  And how excited I am.  And how much I love him, even though he has not even hit the air.  And how my heart will soon be broken, twice in one sweep, when Kim and the new baby leave for Michigan. 

And it was beautiful when I wrote it the first time, stupid blog.  

I came back to this to mention that my roommate left me tonight, for 3 full weeks she’ll be gone.  And I’ll be here, out in Astoria, all by myself.  I will definitely miss her.  Not that sometimes having an apartment to yourself isn’t a plus…  because it usually is.  It will be different, maybe a little lonely.  

I also decided that they should make another set of star wars movies, because i think i could play the daughter of princess leia and han solo.  Check it.

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I mean, it totally works.  Someone call George Lucas now.  And people tell me I look like Natalie Portman often enough for her to be my grandma.  And I think I would be pretty awesome with a light saber.