• Today I feel like:  Ellen Page, because I feel young and green to the ways of hollywood and the corporate world, even though I’ve been around it all for awhile now.

And this is NOT just because Juno just came out.  Okay, so it’s partially because Juno just came out, and because I just watched it.  But really, it’s a great movie so I feel unashamed.  

However, its movies like that that make me feel both young and old at the same time.  I mean, I feel so emotionally young, like I still relate more to the kids in movies in high school, than to a lot of the movies about adults.  Maybe it’s partially because the actors in the high school movies are actually older.  Partially because I find I have very little accomplished for my age.  

Okay so the shadowy computer light that is cast upon my hands and highlighting every vein and wrinkle doesn’t help me in this.  I find, that as friends begin to talk about my birthday coming up, when usually I would be completely psyched (they remembered!), this year I feel like calling the whole thing off.  You know, no big deal.  We’ll just do it next year. No problem.  

I’m in the paused state.  I’m out of school (thank god) and not yet into the married or children or family driven life (oh thank the good freakin lord) so really where am i?  in my twenties…  i’m a twenty-something.  I’m starting to think that the phrase “twenty-something” was invented so that people like me wouldn’t have to say the second number if they didn’t want to.  Or they could just skip a birthday if they felt like it.  No really.  Nothing to celebrate here.  Try back next year, maybe then I’ll actually get older! But not this year, oh no…  Not this year.